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(12-09-2016 12:48 PM)Marechal des logis Daedalus Wrote:  Oh also congratulations to Shippo. Maybe now he will be the bread-winner?

He has been since I've been out here really lol, I only cover the groceries and netflix bills mostly, he does all the other things like rent and internet and utilities XD

(12-09-2016 12:48 PM)Marechal des logis Daedalus Wrote:  A lot of people do not know this, but honestly I was almost roped into being transsexual. I have nearly always felt uncomfortable being around boys and then men, and there are many times where I can remember wanting to be a woman instead.

I have the same kinda thing, but I'm just uncomfortable around people in general.
I actually find myself more comfortable around older women than anything else which is really funny.

(12-09-2016 12:48 PM)Marechal des logis Daedalus Wrote:  What I have figured out from talking to men in private is that this is apparently a much more common issue among the millennial generation than one would initially think. I believe this is merely a symptom of a much larger social problem occurring within Western countries combined with the encouragement the internet provides, especially in the last few years with trends in extreme "progressive" ideals.

Besides, transtrenderism is really irritating.

Yeah, when I made my post on tumblr about this whole situation, I was musing if I only felt that way because so many others I know have done it or if it's real. Like people that have known me for awhile know I tend to do what others are doing so I can fit in and all mostly (like most people do I'm sure), and I just wonder if I wasn't around so many people becoming trans if it'd even be a thing with me.
As I said my whole "body dysmorphia" just comes from not being fat enough, as it's nearly the only thing I've ever wanted since I was a child (like really one of my earliest memories is just watching a cartoon with WG and wishing that was me) but since I've had depression for YEARS now and not able to find out why, and the type of body I want leans towards a more womanly shape is the reason I feel it's a possible thing.

I agree and at least I'm not wanting to make up a fake gender lol

(12-09-2016 12:48 PM)Marechal des logis Daedalus Wrote:  There was one key factor which prevented me from pursuing it further though. All of it is mental, and if it is mental, that means I control it. If I do not want to be transsexual, I do not have to be one, and I would really rather not. This is more formally called Gender Identity Disorder for a reason, because it causes personal problems just like any other disorder. All of the transsexual people I have ever spoken to were male-to-female, and all of them said they had been through clinical depression and suicidal thoughts, so that really does not sound like a very pleasant way to live if I have a choice. The encouragement really seems misguided when placed into that context.

My mental game is just messed up, I feel like with the problems I had in school in the past happened in this time period I'd more than likely be called autistic or told I have aspergers, but I was given the ADHD excuse, so that's all I got to go on. So there'd be no way for me to mentally get over it xP
But my depression comes in waves and only rarely do they as far as suicidal thoughts, but in that regards I can mentally get over it because I just think of how shitty it'd be for me to do that to Shippo. When I do have them though, they're mostly over body stuff and I feel like things are wrong in other areas that I can't control.
I've also heard of MtF people that thought doing it would fix their depression but then it just got worse, which is another reason why I'd never transition. If only there were some kind of costume I could just put on and look like how I want I think I'd be happier lol